Imagine being in a throng, squeezed into a room with many you do not know. People are pressing from every side and you move to try to relieve the pressure. They just keep coming. No matter which angle you move your body, no matter where you turn, there is a crush weighing in on you. You look from side to side, trying to find an escape. The air is getting hot and clammy; you need to get out or you will lose your mind. Still turning, looking for a way of escape, you see someone across the room that you know. Here is your way out. You know your friend can help you. There is confidence now. You can wait a little longer because you know your friend is there and will get you free.
The crowd begins to part and there stands your friend. You take his hand and he leads the way through the press, out into the open. You breathe deep of the clean, fresh air. Your mind begins to clear and you have a peace. He came through for you again; why did you even doubt?
Friend, I have found myself in this place many times. A place that seems everywhere I turn there is a crush, a feeling of defeat. I have been in a literal crush of people, escaping a natural disaster, and it was a terrible feeling. But I have found myself in a mental tug of war, a mental crush many more times than I can count. The Bible says that we have an enemy and he is trying to destroy. What better way than to overtake our minds with sorrow and shame?
On these occasions that I find myself crowded with hurts and pressure, I tend to forget my friend who has brought me out of every trial. Why do I even doubt? When the pressure is mounting and I can’t see the escape, it is hard to relax and let go of my control.
I want to stay in control of every situation. To relinquish control means that I am weak. Guess what? I AM weak! I couldn’t escape the terror by night or the enemy by day if it weren’t for my friend!
I have recently had financial stress; and it has been VERY hard. I have also had problems in my body for which I will have surgery. After the surgery they will biopsy. How scary is that? I have three teens, I home school my children, every way I turn I seem to hit an obstacle. I have prayed and cried and begged and blubbered. It looks to no avail. I have sat in my prayer closet and asked, “Where are you, God? Why?” But through all of this, I still held on to the faith that no matter what, God is still in control. Why do we go through the fire? To come out as gold. Every person on earth goes through trials, whether they believe there is a God or not. I want to have someone I can lean on in these trials. I would not want to go through these things believing there is no God, for God alone can save me! Yes, I am weak and I need a supernatural being to help me through life.
As I have pondered on God’s Word, I remembered a verse that sums up my thoughts. I looked it up, and the meaning of the words. It is a beautiful summary. This verse tells me God knows where I am and He hears me when I call. It may not be an immediate response, but He will help.
II Corinthians 4:8-9
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
troubled-to crowd, afflict, throng, suffer tribulation
distressed-to hem in closely, cramp
perplexed-to have no way out, be at a loss mentally, doubt
despair-to be utterly at a loss
persecuted-press toward, to pursue
destroyed-die, perish, lose
Even in the throng, the pressure, the doubt; we are not left to die. Jesus will pick us up and dust us off and tell us to run…keep running. The race is not to the swift, but to those who endure to the end.